White Dear You Before writing this I had plenty of thought in my head but the moment I started writing, all off them vanished and now I don't know what to write and how. Actually I have several things to talk about but I'm baffled where to start. Do you remember my last message? Probably not. I'm not kind of a person who ask for emotional support easily because I don't believe anyone when it comes to my emotions, but that day I was feeling really dreadful and I wanted to talk to you, tell you everything which was going on in my mind that time. Your late replies were irritating me, even when I knew it's nothing you never did earlier but that night I was expecting you to be there for me. You must be wondering why I was expecting you to waste your time for me? But the truth is you are the one who made me feel vulnerable in front of you. I don't know why everything is extremely effortless with you, whenever I talk to you, even think about you I feel comfortable, the comfort which I always craved for, the comfort which I want permanently in my life. It's been months since we last talked, I assume you atleast once gave a thought to why I suddenly stopped talking to you. There's a reason, to me a big one, whenever I feel ignored by someone I never talk to them again, it's my way to protect my self-respect and I hate this feeling that someone is talking to me unwillingly or forcefully. I never ever wanna waste anyone's time, obviously I respect them and their priorities. I waited for your reply that night and the entire next day, I don't know whether I was upset with you or what when I deleted some of those most expressive messages and I tried to delete all of them but couldn't succeed due to whatsapp policies. Don't read my words with this pitiful look on your face okay... they Worth more then that. I'm being honest with you, I was hurt by your action....I still am, I'll be okay though. You messaged me after more than 20 days, that too because it was some festival not because you wanted to check on me, it was like scratch on the scare which didn't healed yet. You asked me how I am and I gave you one word answer "Fine" I wanted to write a lot but then.......Yeah my self-respect. When you called me I had my phone in my hand but I didn't picked your call, I was just looking at the screen while there was the war of emotions going on inside me. I didn't called you back nor you tried to reach out, somewhere deep down I feel like you just don't care, because people who care don't leave. Since back then I'm contemplating the idea whether should I call you or not. I'm writing all this to you only because I don't wanna keep it all in my heart, it's really heavy I just wanna release them, so I thought it's better to talk to you about you. Your's Nothing ©अgni

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Blue Moon There is no one whom I can text at late night when I don't feel good Who listen to me or talk to me about what's in my head Nothing is wrong with being alone But It's extremely scary to feel alone Sometimes I wonder Am I not the good one for anyone? why No-one want's to stay in my life? Why everyone I like start distancing themselves from me after a certain time? And after realising negligence When I stop putting efforts, is it because of ego or I'm just protecting myself from heartbreak Sometimes I get confused in these two But there is no one who can simplify it for me ©अgni

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White Dear You Before writing this I had plenty of thought in my head but the moment I started writing, all off them vanished and now I don't know what to write and how. Actually I have several things to talk about but I'm baffled where to start. Do you remember my last message? Probably not. I'm not kind of a person who ask for emotional support easily because I don't believe anyone when it comes to my emotions, but that day I was feeling really dreadful and I wanted to talk to you, tell you everything which was going on in my mind that time. Your late replies were irritating me, even when I knew it's nothing you never did earlier but that night I was expecting you to be there for me. You must be wondering why I was expecting you to waste your time for me? But the truth is you are the one who made me feel vulnerable in front of you. I don't know why everything is extremely effortless with you, whenever I talk to you, even think about you I feel comfortable, the comfort which I always craved for, the comfort which I want permanently in my life. It's been months since we last talked, I assume you atleast once gave a thought to why I suddenly stopped talking to you. There's a reason, to me a big one, whenever I feel ignored by someone I never talk to them again, it's my way to protect my self-respect and I hate this feeling that someone is talking to me unwillingly or forcefully. I never ever wanna waste anyone's time, obviously I respect them and their priorities. I waited for your reply that night and the entire next day, I don't know whether I was upset with you or what when I deleted some of those most expressive messages and I tried to delete all of them but couldn't succeed due to whatsapp policies. Don't read my words with this pitiful look on your face okay... they Worth more then that. I'm being honest with you, I was hurt by your action....I still am, I'll be okay though. You messaged me after more than 20 days, that too because it was some festival not because you wanted to check on me, it was like scratch on the scare which didn't healed yet. You asked me how I am and I gave you one word answer "Fine" I wanted to write a lot but then.......Yeah my self-respect. When you called me I had my phone in my hand but I didn't picked your call, I was just looking at the screen while there was the war of emotions going on inside me. I didn't called you back nor you tried to reach out, somewhere deep down I feel like you just don't care, because people who care don't leave. Since back then I'm contemplating the idea whether should I call you or not. I'm writing all this to you only because I don't wanna keep it all in my heart, it's really heavy I just wanna release them, so I thought it's better to talk to you about you. Your's Nothing ©अgni

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Blue Moon There is no one whom I can text at late night when I don't feel good Who listen to me or talk to me about what's in my head Nothing is wrong with being alone But It's extremely scary to feel alone Sometimes I wonder Am I not the good one for anyone? why No-one want's to stay in my life? Why everyone I like start distancing themselves from me after a certain time? And after realising negligence When I stop putting efforts, is it because of ego or I'm just protecting myself from heartbreak Sometimes I get confused in these two But there is no one who can simplify it for me ©अgni

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